well today was a weird day... i knew it was gonna be one of those days because the weather looked rainy
well anyways... my girl and me had a discussion .. she broke up with me .. again..like the 3rd time already..
yeah its one of those on and off relationships..but i dont know for how long anymore.. i love her to death and everything but i guess she has something else in mind..
i really dont know anymore..
after i had to do homework for some otha class...
i have been shaky and gittery all day .. (ever since the girlfriend breakin up thing)
i feel sick to my stomach... i feel empty inside..
and as i looked around in my english class... at the really nice looking girls in my class.. all i could do was think about her .. which hurt me even more..
but enough of that ussy shit.. i hate feeling like shit ... god damn ..i wish i could not give a fuck anymore..
like some people(silly edgar!)
and i dunno, as i sit here getting drunk and trying to type this blog, i dont know if i will ever get rid of my al bundy type of luck..
its very silly and very sad..

umm i think trying to do your cal 2 homework while buzzed is a trip!