ohh yeah .. this goes out to those people who are lost..
lost in life.
lost in school..
lost in love..
lost in this huge world..

reality and your dreams and hopes are two different worlds and when they collide .. it breaks something inside of us..
for some reason we are here..
you will fall hard sometimes..
but youll get back up..
you fall harder each and every time after that
your life isnt based on falling down harder and harder each time...
thats just life..
but its more about how we find the strength to get back on our feet..
ohh and trust me..
people will be there to help..
its up to each and every one of us to allow ourselves to get back ...

hey guys.. i have a final next week .. for history.. im screwed..
and this thursday i got another final...
what to do..... study?. ohh ok.. you convinced me...

still missing that someone i thought i had in my life..
i cant sleep or eat or think .. or even feel peace at least inside my heart and soul
a while back i seriously did think of suicide... not just because of her...
but because alot of things in my life have just affected me
i always regreted not being there with my family.. my dad ,, my mom .. my sisters..
i owe it to myself and them that they be filled with good memories of us together..

i also had missed out on alot when i left to go to my high school.
all my old friends always tell me.. damn .. you shouldnt have left . you would have ended up in the same placee..
i grew up with these guys...
they are and were my true family for a large part of my life..

we all wish we could maybe live in the past..

i regret all my life..
i have yet to shown anyone.. except my old friends cus they showed me love...what i can do
and what kinda true person i am inside..

i will always regret losing you ana..
i will regret that for the rest of my life..
but i am so sorry ... and feel so guilty that it took this.. losing you .. in order to figure out a true meaning in life..
i believe that i am in a handful of people who actually do care in the world...
care not just about themselves.. but the world..
if someone is in pain.. or hurt or sick .. it hurts my inside..
.

love thy neighbor right?
well i feel that now..
but i also dont think i or anyone else actually needs to go to church or preach.. or recite things from the bible or any other religion to make themselves feel filled with love.

i will always regret that i couldn't help you...
but look .. i had my wake up call in life..
one day youll have yours..
and i hope .. i seriously do.. that you dont go through the pain i do..
or even think of the things i have..
but hey .. sometimes we learn the hard way.
i wont run like you did..
i will stand up and fight for my dreams..
i know that you shared my world and we both had .. still do have the same dreams..
but time and god .. hopefully will let you see what i mean...

i am filled with all this love inside me,,, yet i feel empty that your not here..